LEADERSHIP V PARTNERSHIP

It has been a long time since the last time I'm a leader of any group or organizations. During my schooldays, i was holding a lot of posts-mainly, the leader. I was the deputy head prefect, the commander for KRS, chairman for PSSGM (silat), the chairman for the club of photography, the chairman for crime prevention club, the chairman for blue house and even the chairman of the mosque! This does not include of me being a leader for small groups of students and being the leader of facilitator in courses. When I was in UITM, I told myself that I should stop of being a leader for a while...So, it went that way. I never wanted to be a leader until now when I'm in UKM. I was chosen to be the leader for the PBL group.

I'm not being cocky about who I was. In fact, I know that some of my friends may have a more bombastic-mumbo-jumbo responsibilities in the past. Which makes they better than I am. What I want to share here is what I have developed through the years of being a leader for organizations. What actually a leader do? before that, what is a leader? Well, according to the Oxford Dictionary & Thesaurus of Current English, a leader is the one who leads. For example director, chief etc. So, leaders are suppose to be followed right? Because if we rebel against our own leader, the organization or the group that we formed is at the brick of banishment by our own disobedience. It is like building a sand castle near a shore where a tidal wave is approaching. So, to ensure the group or whatever we have formed lasts long, the leader are suppose to be effective right? Effective in what sense? Maybe the leader needs to make the right decision in every situation? does the leader needs to make the right decision all the time? the leader can never go wrong? should the leader make his own decision without considering what others may think?

This is the time where 'partnership' come into the picture. Through my years of being a leader, I have learnt that we are humans. We do make mistakes. Sometimes, our so called normal-without-a-post group member may got some ideas that even I as the the leader may not think of. What damage would it cause if I put their ideas into consideration? plus, we can work hand by hand and I believe, by this way of treating my colleagues, they will respect me even more. I'm saying this because i can see these values are lacking in my surroundings. I do know and I truly understands how it feels like being a leader. There are some leaders out there that cannot cope with the stress, they starting to give up and blaming each others. In my opinion, a group or organization is not composed of the leader only. Actually, the group itself is the leader. Each and every member of the group carries the responsibility to lead themselves. Not by just relying to one person.

I do understand about how hard being a leader. Because of that, I'm applying what I refer as partnership in my leadership for the PBL group. By this method, we can work together as a group and respect each other.

In conclusion, a leader needs to know how to tackle various situations that may happen in a group so that they can find the exact solution for every problem that they are facing. Last but not least, maybe the title of this post can be changed from Leadership v Partnership to leadership needs partnership.

My Break

After all the hard works and tiredness and also lake of sleep, the sem break finally arrived and i can 'balik kampung' to see my beloved family. There is been a long times i haven't going back home and during my life at UKM, it really teach me how to appreciated all the times we have with our family members especially when all of us grown up and will have our own life, to gather together as a family will getting harder as all of them are busy with their own life and jobs.

Back to my reflection, for this is my first sem break as a university student maybe not mush different with school break accept for me i need to travel far to going back home and take a very tiring journey all the way home. But before i can really going back home, there is a important duty, or actually a camping that i had sign in to attend it. The aim of the camping is to gather all the students especially from Sabah and Sarawak, who are not going back on the sem break to take part and join the activities. At the beginning, it is quite tough for me because i dont even know one of them and that the chance for me to build up my social web or network with other side of my own world. For the first time of my life, i finally can meet such great students that same races with me. As personal, im grown up in a such multiracial community and never had a chance to experience living in my own culture and communicate with someone that are same ethnic like me. Maybe some mind thing it is ridiculous and not important but for me, i have been living a far from my own culture and races makes me feels that it is important to me to search back my background. From the gathering, it is really help me to cope all the curiosity within me. Finally i got the chance to speak by my own language with others than speak the same with me although my Iban language is bad. Furthermore, the camping truly give a lot of benefits to me because im not only can explore my own culture but also gain so many knowledge and experiences throughout my 4 days and 3 night at Johor.

After the incredible tripped at Johor, it is time for me to enjoy my rest and holiday at home. But im not going to wasting my break by sleeping and eating for the whole days left. So, as it is still in the 'Raya' mood and still in the moment of festive, i decided to have a '1 Malaysia' trip to all my Muslim friends that celebrated Hari Raya. Why i call it '1 Malaysia' trip, because all my friends comes from different races, religion, and culture stick together in one car to celebrated Hari Raya. It seem like common to us, but to me as a Malaysian that really show us who Malaysian is and such things may not happen without congeniality. We should realize and back to basic on how to take care of our Malaysian, by the simple things that we do it is not only can bring us together but it also can makes us apart. Festive season always be the best times to unite all the Malaysian together under the one roof of Malaysia and learn others culture as it is our responsible as a part of this community.

The so-called break up letter.

Dear the chosen one,

I have a feeling you knew this time would come. And I have to say that it's not you, it's all me.(The typical I'm-not-that selfish-lines)

You and I have been through months of moments that we shared together and our relationship has been pretty good. Up until now. You never demanded exclusivity and I didn't imagine I'd need to go anywhere else for something I could look up to. It has always been you. But lately, if you have actually noticed, it has been a rocky situation for us both. I noted the fact that we've known each other too well yet that does not suffice much for me to hang on with you. Bits by bits, I'm losing hopes on you and if you ever realized, things were totally different when we first started out. You have always enthralled me and everything felt easy and hassle-free that I assumed my previous life with you was an almost like a bed of roses. So conveniently linked to you and these people around me have always been there as my support system to keep us together still. All I ever had to do was sit back and focusing on you. Not much efforts I had to put, as you obviously can see.

But now? I can see the vast differences. I don't know whether this would come out right or will only worsen the situation yet I can no longer hold it back. I have to let you know that all the passion and enthusiasm I once felt with you are diminishing gradually. I used to look at you knowing that out of all those promising options I had, you'd fit me best mentally, physically, and emotionally. I admit that you used to be everything that I wanted and dreamt of. I enjoyed getting to know you. Every inch of you left me with curiosity that induced myself to discover and explore you more tirelessly. Chosing you boosted up my pride as I know only few souls are that lucky to be with you. You created wonders, hopes, inspirations, and aspirations for my life and made me a better person by being with you. With you, I learned how arguments can be excruciatingly annoying yet fun at the same time. You teach my heart and mind to speak meticulously. I was practically trained by you and having you running in my head daily, never wears me out. I constantly have been told by them that by keeping this relationship with you, I will have a great future that is yet to be unfolded. But in order to actualize that dream, I have to be strong-willed and have a high capability of tolerating you always. Each of your needs and demands despite that will annoy me to the core. Eventhough in the beginning my dad was going against my choice to go for you, I paid no attention because I knew that you won't let me down. Do you still think that this relationship is the best for us? I doubt that.

There are times I can profoundly feel that we belong together but when all these hardship and tests come along the way, my pessimist side is unleashed. At times I neglected you but come to think of how crucial it is to get back with you, I would go and get back on track with you. Well, since you are a very practical person, I bet you need strong reasons on why things are never the same. Firstly, I figured out that you are too clingy for me. You demand way too much time and attention from me. I find it hard for me to spend my time with my family and friends. In fact, it has been forever since I spare a quality time for myself. You have engulfed most of my weekdays routines and lately it has always been you who have been occupying my to-do list. Secondly, no matter how hard I tried to satisfy you, but to no avail. Instead, I always end up in disappointment and parts of me still feel rather unfullfilled. It is like everything I do to bond us back is never going to be enough for you. You complained that I haven't been putting much efforts to make this work. For once, give me a break. I'm just 19 and I deserve to enjoy my youth and not being suffocated with this kind of life commitment. I am not an anti-social hermit breathing under your sleeves. I have another thing I am obliged to focus on to which is called Life. Have you heard?

Thirdly, you are such a control freak. You just can't stop telling me what's wrong and what's right for my life. Mind you, I am mature enough to distinguish that. For whatever grounds you have to warn me with your threats and daunting words, there will always be someone who will disobey you. They don't feel intimidated over you. I am no different, so be my guest. I know this might sound rude, but in the meantime of all the headache and heartache you have given to me. I have to admit, that I've been indulging myself with someone else. Not in a serious sort of way. Hang on, I am not cheating on you. I need to unwind and evaluate myself of what I really want in my life to keep me contented. It's just that I had a thought of how relaxing my life could have been if I were to go back to my first love. The one I've always pictured myself building a long term commitment with. I should have not turned my back on him and realized that by being him, things will be easier and less suffocating. He does not have much for me to discover and to tolerate with as he is a simple creature compared to you. You are so complicated and hard to keep up with. You are just way too much for me to handle on a daily basis. As months go by, things get harder for me and not the other way round and I should be aware of that so that I won't be lost in translation. The thing is, I have been too preoccupied by you that if I ever let you go now, it'd be my greatest mistake. I have ran out of time to turn back to my first love and enjoy the idyllic life with him.

I don't know how much longer I should pretend as if my complacency can withstand the burden you're giving me lately. As much as I don't want to go on living up my life for years being relentlessly drained mentally and physically by you is as much I have come to a conclusion that it's too late to make up my mind and be with someone else. Of all the rantings I wrote here, I still have feelings for you my dear, although they don't feel the same anymore. After days of scrutinizing my future, I believe that we stand bigger chances of still being together. If you can actually try to put yourself in my shoes right now and fathom the dilemma I'm having, I guess this relationship wouldn't be this arduous. Do tell me if I need a change as that's what necessary to keep the relationship going. Please don't let me down again. I've come a long way to reach this stage of owning you. I can't back down as I've made several foolish mistakes in the past and I want you to know that I want to grow old with you and serving our kids and the public with whatever you have taught me about life.

So yes, help me to patch up this broken pieces and redefine our relationship, Mr. Legum Baccalaureus*

Desperately waiting,

Mia M Nor (1L)

*Legum Baccalaureus(LLB)- Bachelor of Law Degree.

1st love-TESL prog.

I apologize for the rantings. The crazy hours of preparing for PBL, presentations, and the upcoming finals that caused me to write this semi break-up letter . Don't worry, I'm still a law student deep down here and I won't settle for less. Please enjoy the video below. It illustrates us, the Law students who pretty much had a 'life' before they enrolled any law schools. :) It will crack your head even more.Enjoy your break and a Happy Eid Mubarak to all Muslims and may you have a good one this year.

--woohoo-- it's a holiday again!!

it's me again!! haha.. firstly, to every muslim friends, i wish all of you selamat hari raya!!! hope you all can have a "real" holiday before facing a tough month coming ahead.. what is meant by "real" holiday is without thinking the pbl(problem based learning), presentation for hubungan etnik, IT's project and nevertheless our coming final. haha.. it is really scary isn't it??

however life still have to carry on no matter how tough is it!!! this is what i always tell myself to confort me!! and it is quite effective, you all can try!! haha.. now i'm sitting alone at the living room of my house, thinking that one semester is about to pass yet question marks on top of my head are still there!! haha.. law is really something need to memorise a lot!! so i got to remind everyone of you, got to take this opportunity to drink more tonics at home before you are back to ukm especially fuu!! there're a lot of challenge waiting for us to overcome..

yesterday(saturday) i came back to jb through ktm. and this is the first time i use ktm as a mode of transportation!! feel a bit excited while waiting for the train to arrive!! actaully my train should be on friday night but that night i waited for the ktm for nearly 2 hours still the train not arriving and at last the person-in-charge told us that the generator of the train was having some problem and maybe got to wait some more, so i decided to change the time to saturday!!

in the train, there are a lot of visitors from overseas!! haha.. most of them are going to singapore from kuala lumpur!! it was raining.. so i was like sleeping in the whole journey till i reached johor bahru!! haha.. my mum came to fetch me when i had reached the last station!! quite happy to see her and we went for lunch!! so coincidence that my younger sister also came back from singapore on that day!! but we didn't have our lunch together cause she was caught in a traffic jam in singapore custom!! many people are rushing back at the same time!! so left out my mum and me to have luinch together!!

it is good to be back and feel like that can relax and take one week break before school reopen!! haha... so hope to see you all on the 28 of september in pperfect condition ya!! take good care.. and my muslim friends, don't forget to bring some kuih raya to share with us!! haha.. see you.. once again, i wished all of you to have a wonderful hari raya!!

hardship

Hi Mdm Sitha and all of My friends.Firstly I would like to wishing you all Selamat hari raya Aidilfitri and may all of you have a pleasant Holidays.Regarding to my reflection on everything that i had gain few months before and the result tfor the test that I had sat.Not to mention all ther preparation that I need to struggle on in doing my best for that precious 30% marks in our pbl.Problem based Learning is basically about our own responsibility in searching and discovering new submisssion for our studies which is involving Contract Law and Federal Constitution. This subject need us to perform well in delivering the related submission in mooting. Yes, mooting. That practically needing you to actually perform yourself in any role such as the judge, the respondent councils and the appelant.In this matter I have been appointed as the respondent in Contract Law while in Consti I play The role for the Judge.Hence I need to be more prepared not as usual as i need to play even harder in this field in order to survive for this semester. and i know that i will be in that place someday but somehow I neet to follow my guts that nothing in this world comes cheap.I need to pay for sums of effort in realizing my dreams and what not.So, books and cases will only be on my fingertips like my Contrac law had said,Puan Sakina that really opened my eye about everything that I have experienced before.Every hurdle that I have and will faced will draw Extra miles in my journey throughout the aim in success.Now, about the test result in English For law, though i know that I havent learn well in it as i still searching the essence of it. The subject itself give the meaning by not easy but importance in having me being good command in English in order to survive in those big career world coming ahead to me after 4 years in reading Law.I dindnt do my best in this course and I dont surprise with the marks but what i am so dissapounted is of course myself, i do take this as lightly as i could when i have to seperate my time on more important subject and that is my biggest mistakes. I shouldnt think and act like it.What can i do right now is to find that key of balance for all my subjects so that i will not miss any of it..... So for those that score high in this subject, congratulations for all of you and for me myself i need to stand here for understanding the whole process that i need to go through.Thanks for all the support and perhaps we will see again in 4 years time Insyaallah.Bye and please enjoy your raya as i mention to myself over and over again for just enjoying this holiday before I'm going to work hard after this break so Enjoy.

Nothing is FREE

"No stress, no stress, no stress, just turn into your left left left" this is a sentence of a song sung by Jesse Mccartney and i desperately need those words.haha. I am sitting in my room in Kolej Rahim Kajai while most of my friends have already went back to their hometown.Sometimes it is good to have some time all on your own and do the stuff that you enjoy the most. It have been ages since i last did my favourite past time activities and i wonder will i have that opportunity again?

Alrighty! Lets get into my reflections. Back to our hometown for a week do not seem to be a very long period of time. Time will surely passes by super fast with tons of work to be done and revisions. Over the past few weeks, the students have been in real hectic life, completing their assignments to beat the deadlines. Group work is when the time everybody will either have co-operation or conflicts or even both. I truly understand those frustrations some of them had to undergo due to some bad circumstances because i have experienced that countless of time. I know it is hard to have everybody in the group to have the same objective or you would say consensus ad idem. However, i believe by communications or having dialogue with each other, the problems will be solved but i will not say 100%. To be able to achieve what we want as a group, each and everyone of us need to give not just take.

Other than group works, i found out that not everyone is helpful enough to help you in your studies. I seldom encounter this problem during my high school time and after i have studied here for few months, now i have learnt that i got to face the reality of life which is ''Nothing is FREE". Nothing is free here means i will not get the help from others without giving them something in return for that. Therefore, in order to survive this, i got to be independent enough and also to be smart enough (hopefully). haha. All and for all...this is what i call life....there sure to be ups and downs...the only difference is that, the way i look into my problems. If i am optimistic enough, then things will be much be easier.

Still not enough.....HOW?

Yeah...This is the last week we going to finish our first semester syllabus.I am not sure whether this is something that can we cheering up o not.Why I say so?Honestly, I have some kinds of uninvited feeling in my minds.I am not sure whether i can maintain my academic performance in a excellent way as i tried before in my STPM.I really worry about the new things happening around me.It's seem everthing still keep changing and I think I am totally loss out.

Withtin this week,we will going to finis up our MLS,CONSTI and CONTRACTS lecture.However,my curiosity and uncertainty on all the compulsory subjects make me
frustrate and I really unsatisfify with my own performance.I still grapping in a dark tunnel and don't know where is my final station to stop by.I have the feeling that the things happening around me really challenging my own ability.i hate this kind of feeling because i afraid that i can't make it and will be thrown out from the "express train'in my lecture hall. I already realise that I can't just stick to my outdated method to catch out my academic .

In the past two months, I have attended in every lecture and what i get is just have curiosity ang vagueness.I am confious about the rules and principles that really really important in my contracts law.Even if I can understand,there are no use at all becuase I have the problem to apply all the rules in the proper way.I am sad to look at my lecturer expression when we unable to give an accurate answer during the revision week.I can feel that they are totally frustrated.Our lacturers have told us that our group is not good enough if compared to our our seniors.However, I as a part from this badge has try my best to perform.I try to contribute as much as I could and not to make my lecturers dissapointed.However, when i am giving an inacurate answer,the effect will be more discouraging.The same condition happen in my MLS nad CONSTIL where I realise that I am not able to comprehend it well.This is the major problem that really make me worry about.

Although next week will be Raya Holiday but it's not an relaxing holiday at all.This holiday is the only time for me to get myself well-prepared and not being thrown out from the 'express train'. I hope that i really can cope with this and will not make my parent dissapointed. This is because my parent's special clause 'Be the best, be the hope and fight the worse'.I will use all the time I have in the coming holiday to cope with my weaknees and do the best.I want be a good models to my siblings and in the same time keep my parents' hope alive.....n Prof I trust that all group will present the best in the coming PBL week and hope it will give an relief to our lecturers' efford.

Reflecting on Last-Minute behavor.

Actually, studying in a University was something that I always wished for when I'm in form 6. I foresee my time in then Uni would be relaxing and somewhat easy for me to accommodate.

For the past 10 weeks, my life here seems to be quite intriguing. I'm in a constant struggling mode here due to my lazy/hardworking attitude. I must say back in high school, last minute study can always guarantee success because there were tips given by the teachers or the subjects that I had was not that hard to comprehend given the time of 1 and 1/2 years to study the same subject. However, in here, studying must be a consistent process. Why? we need to master a subject in 3 months and not only one subject but 3-5 subject in a very short period of time.

I believe that most of us are very last-minute oriented but I must say we need to change right now or we will eventually fall behind in just a blink of eye. The principle of last minute can't really doesn't help us here. Why?

a. There are too many assignments.
b. The subject that we learn will be applied in the future.
c. We will be insane after the exam. I truly believe last-minute students will not have enough time.Not to forget time to sleep and to eat.
d. The TIPS ARE NOT ENOUGH TO BEGIN WITH !

I think this really reflected me on my attitude. I must say I'm in a changing process right now. Although there were times that I'm very lazy till the only thing I wanted to do was to sleep but I believe that changing my attitude will eventually lead me to a better person. I don't want my 4 years in UKM staying up the whole night in preparing for exams or doing my assignments.I hoped for a relaxing university life. Thus, I must start to change.

~ Better late then never~

THE END...

Today is our final tutorial in this semester. After 7 weeks, it is already finished. We will do not any tutorial after this till next semester. A lot of thing that I’ve learned since the tutorial started. Although not in a good condition to perform in this semester, I’m so thankful because I can finish it. After this, all of us will busy for our PBL. Since now, we have to do our research to sure our PBL will go smoothly.
Back to our tutorial, I think it try to give us more exploration about what are we will be to face in the future. Although it is have some difficulties to do that, I have to face it. This tutorial give me more information about what is law, how to use law in our live and most importantly is to give me preparation to my final exam on October. But, for this semester I’m so speechless. I don’t know why all of this happened to me. Maybe because I have no confidence to speak in English. Besides, I not prepare well for the tutorial makes me bit worried about that.
Today is also our last lecture. We have revision with lecturer for next week. So, next week we just make revision for all that we have learned since week 2 because we still not in lecture in our first week. This is the time for us to asking our lecturer anything we do not understand. This is the best time for us to know how to answer question in our final exam and know about the question although it is not too specific for us. And after holiday we will start for our presentation and PBL. So, for right now we are busy to do our preparation for that. We have to struggle to find our problem, cases and a lot of thing. Our PBL will going in mooting so, I have to prepare because this is my first experience to do mooting. I’m little bit worry for that.
Finally, I’m just wanted to say all the best for us in PBL and ‘SELAMAT HARI RAYA’ for all Muslims. And for non-Muslims, you are allowed to join and enjoy for our celebration. TQ... J

..if you ask about my reflection,i give you my reflection..

fuuh..finally,i'm here at this blogging site

i was given supposedly easy task which is to post a blog

the problem is not that "post a blog" thing

but the task which is my reflection toward the course, is the real problem

hehe

generally,i think that law is very hard course

it look easy but don't judge a book by it's cover

when you decide to accept the offer letter for course law

it means that you decide to read law

because reading law means that it must be continuous

as from reading we gain knowledges and languages

and knowledges and languages is the assets of a lawyer

because reading law means that you must sacrifice much of your time reading

some people will say "why those law students were very proud of themselves"

some people will say "why it's getting hard to see you lately"

furthermore,the location of law faculty in UKM were very quite remote from other faculty

and to arrive there,seems like you had arrived in Brinchang,Cameron Highlands

but for me.....

i am happy with the offer to continue my law degree at UKM

although my first choice was at Shah Alam , UiTM....hehe

and it was really different with the previous programme that i take which is PI007 Law

Foundation KPTM 2008/2009

not to say it was getting harder

but to say it seems very weird to study law in Malay due that in UiTM,the language was English

here,i learn and experience a lot of new things like moot,debate,blog..

and I LOVE IT

it is because it is good for me and all of the students

in addition , to answer the previous questions....

we are not proud of ourselves and we are not that kind of people that do no want to mingle with

society

but we have responsibility that we need to fulfill and to achieve that we have to sacrifice

something but we will get the benefit later

in easy words,if you are law students,proove it and don't just brag about it

Reflecting on Contract Law.

Sorry for the very late update.
Now, I would like to reflect on part in contract law which is the element of capacity.
The law in our country held, when a minority enters into a contract the contract will be void whereas the benefits that a minor gains will not have to be return to the adult.

For me, I think it's very bias towards the minors. Maybe in the past, the law was meant to protect minors from frauds or coercion from adults in entering a contract but nowadays things had changed. Nowadays minors are way cleverer compare with the minors 20 years back.Their way of thinking and learning is way more faster even if compare to the adults right now.
Their were some cases whereby the minors itself represented themselves as 21 years although they are just 18 years old. This was actually a fraud by the minors but the verdict was always one their side. So, I don't think it is fair towards the adults who get cheated by them.

The law itself must be flexible,so I felt that Malaysian Judges shouldn't just be holding the same precedent since the situation had changed. They should be looking the problem in 2 direction even though the minors are still young but when they are able to cheat, I think a different verdict should be held. Thanks.

Ogos.2009(kris 2)

Now already my third month in National University of Malaysia,in Faculty of Law.I think i get use to this environment already...hopefully.I feel dissapointed of myself after the mid-sem test because I know I did badly.I am very scare to receive the result as I may get zero in those 3 papers.Now the situation is really very different with the moment I still at STPM because during that time I am still top student but now I look like the most dumb student in this faculty.But hope my fear will transform to be my great motivation to push me in this endless journey.I have senior told me that once you choose to enter faculty of law,you will hold the law books in your hand until the day you get off from this.Wow,is a extreme challenge to me.Sometime I will still think about whether law is really suit me,but just a second later i told myself that is no way back,i need to continue to face all the challenge in the future.
Apart from that,I am very happy and grateful that i have many friends that very helpful in this university.I would like to say thank you to all that had helped me before.May our friendship will remain forever.Nevertheless for all my lecturers that give a lot of knowledge to me.The final test is getting closer,so is time to work harder for myself,for my future and of course my beloved parent.
Before I end my second entry I would like to share with those who are reading my posting about my experiance in these past few weeks involved in Pesta Tanglung UKM.I was called by my senior to attend an interview for the selection of Pesta Tanglung MC.First,i just attend the interview to gain some experiance but unexpectedly I have been call for second interview because at that moment I saw many candiadates that really got talent on the stage.I felt really lucky that I have pass the second interview and now I am one of the member in the MC group.
We were given traning twice a week and so many kinds of test to make sure we are prepare for any kind of situation that may happen on that day.During this process i had developed my confidence to speak in public and learn to tackle sudden situation that may happen and also the correct pronounsation in B.Melayu.Now only I realise that although MC only stand at the stage for a few moment but need to do a lot of preparation work before we stand at the stage.In 11th september 2009 will be my first time talk in front of so many people and minister.I hope I will perform well and also have chance to be the MC at DECTAR in October later.
At last,thanks for reading it.I will see you in my third entry soon.Good bye.

My Ambition V. Everything I Possess

I have been hoping and wishing to become a doctor since I was young. I had myself well-prepared for the career of a doctor. I started studying science since I was 7 and I had majored in Biology since I was in Form 1.Whenever people asked me "What is your ambition?". Without any hesitation and doubt, I would answer "I want and I will become a doctor.".

I was disappointed when I failed to get Medicine for enrollment into university. I am from a small town and news spread fast in small town(even faster for bad news). Everyone is gossipping how I did not get Medicine in markets and kopitiam. Before the customers ask for the price,they ask whether the shopkeepers have heard about my news. If the shopkeepers haven't heard about it,they would be happy to tell them. By the way,they are going to tell again even if the shopkeepers have heard about it........ My mother said she did not know how to respond or answer when her friends( aunties who held MEETING in markets) bombard her with questions......

Well,actually I just got a scholarship offerred from Japanese Embassy. I could accept the offer and study in Japan for Medicine. I was hoping to get the scholarship so much, but now that I had got it, I somehow hesitate and decide to reconsider it again. There are reasons I should take the offer and there are reasons not to.

WHY I SHOULD TAKE THE OFFER
1. I will have a chance to experience a different life which not many Malaysian have.
2. I will learn Japanese Language which is an asset to me in the future.
3. I can persue the field that I am more familiar and have dreamt for so long.
4. I can study the whole course for free and have monthly expense for RM 4201 + -

WHY I SHOULD NOT TAKE THE OFFER
1. If I fail the Japanese Language Test that I will study for the 1st year, I would be asked to go back M'sia with nothing. I will lose my current Law course too.
2. Even if I completed my degree and I want to come back to M'sia and work, I have to take many paper tests which are not easy. Besides,there are many obstruction set up by government to protect local doctors from overseas' doctor's competition.
3. I have to study for 7 years(MEDICINE) there. I jus have to study for 4 years(LAW) here.
4. Finally, I love my friends here and I think I can't afford to lose them. I will miss them so much.

So, I am really in a dillema now. Should I go? Or shouldn't I go? There are some friends who ask me to study there. Some hope that I would stay. Some do not care much and they just said " follow your heart.". My family members also hope that I will take up the offer. My own decision? Ermmmm,I don know yet.

Sometimes I am really disappointed with M'sia's government. I was born and raised up in M'sia. Though, I cannot get any offer from our government. It is the Japan's government that willing to give me a chance to persue what I want. M'sia government always claim that our people prefer to contribute and work for other countries other than their own country. A piece of my advice, before pointing finger to other people,think......." why they don't intend to work in the place they were born and raised up?". Then our government can solve the problem easily. M'sia government has already provided us for so many years in studies and many other affairs since we were young. Why refuses to contribute for our high education and let many of us disappointed and bear resentment inside us? Isn't it irrational? They disappointed people at the last stage, then people are going to disappoint them as well.

If I was offered the course of Medicine in my own country, I will not take any offer from other country(even from Howard University). Then I am going to work here in my own country,serving those who were also born and raised up on this land.

Anyway, Malaysia, Happy 52-nd National Day. I still love you. Hoping you can keep on progressing and thriving well. Good luck.

Turn over a new leaf...

hey...

we meet again...

this is my 2nd entry...

where shall I begin...

hurmmmm.....

Being here in UKM as a law student for about 2 months have taught me a lot of things...I find it very hard at the beginning of my studies and I still feel the same way up until now...There are a lot of things that I still cannot cope up especially about my studies...I find it very hard compared to when I was in UiTM...I feel like I want to give up but I know it is not the best solution and if I give up on this I will break my parents' heart and they will be so disappointed with me...I do not want it to happen...

Time flew very fast...I still have a lot of things to do...I started to lose hope until one day when I met my mentor...I told him about my problem...He came with a few suggestions and the most interesting is he told that nothing is too late if you start it now...He said that make sure I finished study the topic for that week so that the next week I will not be burden...It really had realized me that I actually did not make any move to solve the problem...But keep on whining and make myself feel miserable because of it...

Well now I know...

I have to help myself first before asking others to help me...I have to work hard if I want to succeed ...I have to start it now because I know it is not too late to turn over a new leaf...I'm the one who have to start it not anyone else because it is all about me and nothing else matter...I have to be strong and determine if I want to succeed and those are the things that i want to do now...

...Starts all over again without looking behind and with a new spirit....

Reflection Updates!

Finally,my second entry!First of all I’m keeping my oh-im-so-grateful-to-be-here speech to my first entry only.Let’s focus on my reflection about each one of my subjects.Yes people!im going to reflect on each of the subject Im learning here in UKM however Im not going to bored all of u especially Puan Sitha(im sure you have to read so many entries puan) so long story short,im summarizing my reflection!
First subject-English for Law,i’ve learned so many new words in this class especially those bombastic word like ‘preponderate’(I just love pronouncing it!) and im so excited to do research for my term paper because I find the topic that my group had choose a very interesting one.Learning is so much fun indeed if u had the passion for it.
Second subject-Contract,a very challenging subject that require a lot of thinking but the lecturers been really helpful!Third subject-Constitution,for me,this subject requires a lot of reading and im really trying to cope up with this one because to be honest im still figuring out the interesting part of this subject.
Fourth subject-Malaysian Legal System,the thing I love about the class is the way we get the chance to present our assignment in any way!We can do acting,singing,playing instrument and so many more.The lecturer really give us an opportunity to think creatively.For the record,this week presentation i sang a song!
Fifth subject-IT,it’s a very relaxing subject but very important as well!This subject will polish my skill in finding cases and articles which will be very useful for me.
Sixth subject-Ethnic relation,to be honest im trying my best to enjoy this class but somehow I always find myself a bit clueless by the end of the class.I wish I will view this class differently on my third entry.The last subject is Community Service,I’ve learned to be more aware of the social surrounding than before(I was a bit ignorant before) and we will have a camping trip which im really excited about!
So far everything seems to work out accordingly and although I had to struggle a bit but its really okay.Who says life is easy right?