Still not enough.....HOW?

Yeah...This is the last week we going to finish our first semester syllabus.I am not sure whether this is something that can we cheering up o not.Why I say so?Honestly, I have some kinds of uninvited feeling in my minds.I am not sure whether i can maintain my academic performance in a excellent way as i tried before in my STPM.I really worry about the new things happening around me.It's seem everthing still keep changing and I think I am totally loss out.

Withtin this week,we will going to finis up our MLS,CONSTI and CONTRACTS lecture.However,my curiosity and uncertainty on all the compulsory subjects make me
frustrate and I really unsatisfify with my own performance.I still grapping in a dark tunnel and don't know where is my final station to stop by.I have the feeling that the things happening around me really challenging my own ability.i hate this kind of feeling because i afraid that i can't make it and will be thrown out from the "express train'in my lecture hall. I already realise that I can't just stick to my outdated method to catch out my academic .

In the past two months, I have attended in every lecture and what i get is just have curiosity ang vagueness.I am confious about the rules and principles that really really important in my contracts law.Even if I can understand,there are no use at all becuase I have the problem to apply all the rules in the proper way.I am sad to look at my lecturer expression when we unable to give an accurate answer during the revision week.I can feel that they are totally frustrated.Our lacturers have told us that our group is not good enough if compared to our our seniors.However, I as a part from this badge has try my best to perform.I try to contribute as much as I could and not to make my lecturers dissapointed.However, when i am giving an inacurate answer,the effect will be more discouraging.The same condition happen in my MLS nad CONSTIL where I realise that I am not able to comprehend it well.This is the major problem that really make me worry about.

Although next week will be Raya Holiday but it's not an relaxing holiday at all.This holiday is the only time for me to get myself well-prepared and not being thrown out from the 'express train'. I hope that i really can cope with this and will not make my parent dissapointed. This is because my parent's special clause 'Be the best, be the hope and fight the worse'.I will use all the time I have in the coming holiday to cope with my weaknees and do the best.I want be a good models to my siblings and in the same time keep my parents' hope alive.....n Prof I trust that all group will present the best in the coming PBL week and hope it will give an relief to our lecturers' efford.